Off to the nations…again? YES.

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Hello friends.  So I’m married now.  And the journey continues.

 

God is so big.  He’s so real.  He’s so present.  And he cares so much.  About your heart.  How its doing.  How you’re feeling.  He is with you because he delights in you.  He enjoys you and wants to be found in your company.

 

God continues to invite me to do things I don’t understand.  I continue to say yes.  The first week I arrived on the island two and half months back, or what feels like now was the first week, I heard word of a number of artists gathering and creating together for a few days in a city called Tangier in the northern country of Morocco.  The idea was shelved and life happened.  My fiance came, we got married, and as of last week still nothing was final concerning this trip.  The event begins eight days from now.  Yesterday, I booked tickets.

 

I never done this before, gotten together regionally with other people as crazy as me to come together for a few days specifically to create.  There is a house of prayer in Tangier hosting this inspiration fest and I hear we’ll get to travel within Morocco to help another creative space launch or open or something of that sort.

 

The people in charge have long been friends of the wonderful Passmore family currently hosting me on the island.  I look forward to meeting this extended family.

 

On an after thought side-note for those of you wondering, I am taking this trip solo.  My husband encourages me to respond to my desires, my heart, and my excitement.  He is part of a dream I still haven’t woken up from yet.  I also know he will be an asset to the Passmores as the much anticipated ‘first team’ arrives of six people also calling Miramar (the name of the house here) home for the five week duration of their trip.

 

I continue to live out of my suitcase as I will be moving rooms again before this team comes and possibly several times over the course of the next two months as the nations flood this house over the summer with the ever increasing guest list.

 

Already we have people in life transition, families healing, missionaries on furlow, crazy single people moving their whole lives here, people passing through on their way to all other parts of the world and more; each story unique, each person priceless.  Sometimes a wandering thought comes in my mind of what’s my role, why am I here? and then I remember that there is no way I could have gotten here where I am now other than God’s divine hand and I guess he’s smart enough to know what he’s doing and I trust him.  I the meantime I’m ‘called’ to be me and I get to love Him back.  🙂

 

I have more thoughts I would love to write and share, words of hope and encouragement, learning curves, and things important to my thoughts right now but I have found less time for writing as things currently stand.  I will share more hopefully soon, in the meantime, much love always and stay true to you, stay comfortably crazy, and please please please be courageous because that’s who you really are.  🙂  …never a victim…never voiceless…never powerless…never less valuable…never without a choice.  You choose.  Please choose fun.  For me.  And for you.  And all those other people.  I might be hearing Joel’s humorous voice through my head as I write this.  He keeps me laughing.  Okay I’m really going to bed, goodnight y’all.  love you friends (even family, friends by choice)  🙂

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Brave Dreaming…Brave Living

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Joel:   We have the privilege of dreaming together with God. Now Religion has told us that we must sacrifice our dreams, to offer them up on the altar, die to them in order to “please” God. When in reality He was the one who placed those dreams inside of us in the first place. This lie of giving up your dreams has left many depressed and not really living their lives to the fullest but merely surviving. We encourage you to dare to dream those dreams again. I see many leaving jobs that they have been working in for many years because they thought they had to and opening up their own businesses and or going to school again to go after those things they have longed for. I see a people who will no longer dread getting up in the morning to go to their boring job but jumping out of bed with joy and a great expectation of what that day will look like.

Heather:   After working as a missionary giving “my all” to God, my career choice took an unexpected turn of events.  While living in the midst of illiteracy, a culture of addiction, lack of adequately involved parenting, and general violence, while doing a lot of “good work” Papa said, “Quit belittling the gift I’ve given you.”  In my hierarchy of perceived self-sacrifice I was “laying down everything” to do what I perceived to be God’s will.  Until he had a conversation with me.  I was invited by an individual to start painting.  It seemed like the world was ending in the midst of my decision on this one point.  I was picturing with God and I saw him through the eyes of a scared little daughter.  I was tightly holding a box of 64 crayons (well used and appreciated in my childhood–mine even had the sharpener built into the back) and Daddy reached out his hand to following his leading.  He was opening a door for me into the front of a building and was leading my hand to follow him and come inside.  I said yes.

I’m not sure if I would have had the faith to step out into starting my own business trusting God’s leading if I hadn’t already done that on the mission field for eight years without having “produced” anything.  But God made it undeniably clear that he desired my creativity and that somehow was important to him, well beyond my understanding.  I was even slightly offended by my lack of understanding on how this was at all practical or effective in any regards to the kingdom of God but I decided he knew what he was doing.

To this day, two and half years later, I paint.  I still don’t understand it, I still have never received training (I don’t have any concept of doing things wrong or right), I still don’t know why what I do is special, and I still often wonder how I should be doing things differently but in the meantime, I paint.  I don’t paint led by money, I paint led by inspiration; sometimes those to combine nicely, other times, I am left to wonder and trust at the fruit.  I find I am often challenged by the Holy Spirit–every project actually–always has something new I’ve never done before involved in it.  To be honest, that’s what keeps thing challenging and intriguing and inside when I’m going to approach a project.  I have to figure out the execution and that’s the part I enjoy of creation, the newness that I’ve never experienced before.  I guess it’s kind of like singing a new song to the Lord.  That’s a little of my story as an artist, a child, and a wonderer.